Every sleepless night I tell myself that tomorrow will be better for one reason or another.  

Oh, tomorrow will be the day I start living, the day I become care free - all my worries will disappear once this project is done, once that presentation is over, once I ace that test.  If I can just get through this one thing, then everything will be okay for the rest of my life.

But everything just keeps coming.

I always expect to feel this great sense of relief, like a big weight will be lifted off my chest, when I overcome an obstacle.  Instead I just feel nothing.  Nothing changes, and my head still pounds at the thought the next obstacle I have to overcome.

It never stops, that headache never goes away.

Life never stops.

Officially going to track and field nationals.

O.o

What do you mean this work isn’t doing itself?

The NCHSAA State 4-A Championships in Greensboro, NC were on Saturday.

We skipped 4th period Friday and stayed in a hotel :3

The 4x800 was up first and I was running 3rd leg.  Our 1st leg handed off in probably 2nd or 3rd place.  At the hand off to me we were in 1st!  I knew I wasn’t going to keep us in first, but I handed off in 2nd place!

I ran a low 2:23 or high 2:22.  

We ended up in 6th :(

But now I remind myself that it’s the very first season than any of us on the relay team have ever run the 800 —- and we beat 10 other schools at the meet, leaving us 6th IN THE STATE.

Then at the end of the meet we ran the 4x400.  I ran first leg as always and handed off in 2nd place.  I ran somewhere in the late :58’s or low :59’s.

We ended up getting 6th place again.

And now our coach is wanting to send us to Nationals??